Wednesday, March 30, 2011

lunch time


I am obsessed with Vietnamese spring rolls. Thanks to all my Vietnamese friends who introduced this magical rice sheet to me. This was my lunch, veges wrapped in Vietnamese rice sheets and nori (seaweed) sheets. I know my spring rolls did not appear appealing at all. In fact, they looked weird especially the seaweed spring rolls. However, I had fun making them. My lunch in fact was way too simple and did not seem tasty at all. But it was pure bliss for me for having my lunch while watching movies. Life is perfect here in Mount Carmel.
I had a Dove dark chocolate with almonds as my dessert. There was a message left on the wrapper.

"Do all things with Love."

Is love the answer to everything? Can you define love?
Love is a big word for me. I am still figuring out what does love really means. I have to admit that it is even hard for me to say that I love myself. I know it is absurd but that was how I feel sometimes. I am a perfectionist and was constantly trying to be the perfect me. When I failed, I blamed myself. It was the hardest part when you could not blame anyone else but yourself. It hurt me to do that. I felt lonely when I turned against myself. All I could do was cried myself to bed and hoping that everything would be fine the next day. However, life is not that easy-going.

I am trying my very best not to be that harsh on myself.  


Smile .Love. Persevere.
  

Sunday, March 20, 2011

a somber mood

I cried a lot recently.
I cried myself to bed thinking that everything will be fine the next day.
But, the truth is not.
I am so stuck.
I wish someone could tell me what to do.
I wish I could just let it go but I am still hanging on tightly to it.
Why am I doing it to myself?
I really do not know.
I have headache every single day.
I did not sleep well recently too.
I talked less recently.
I am always preoccupied with my thoughts about everything.
I could not stop.
I wish I could.
I tried everything I could to make me feel better.
Somehow, all the feel good techniques did not work for me.
Sleeping is the only antidote for me.


Smile. Love. Persevere.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Missing you

So, I reached home, and since I have just one class tomorrow, I guess I could procrastinate my homework again. Yes, call me a procrastinator. I have a little tiny-bitty of fever. That's what happens when my room is warm, but it is freezing cold outside of my room. You can imagine how my body has to adapt to two different temperature. Warm. Cold. Warm. Cold. Warm. Cold. Boom! You get fever.

While I was curling myself up like a caterpillar with my comforter, I stalked people in facebook, and I visited 5s7 group too. I miss high school so much, and the people the most.










I thought that I would not miss high school after I graduated. I guess that I am totally wrong.
Seriously, I need a time machine.


Smile. Love. Persevere.