lunch time

I am obsessed with Vietnamese spring rolls. Thanks to all my Vietnamese friends who introduced this magical rice sheet to me. This was my lunch, veges wrapped in Vietnamese rice sheets and nori (seaweed) sheets. I know my spring rolls did not appear appealing at all. In fact, they looked weird especially the seaweed spring rolls. However, I had fun making them. My lunch in fact was way too simple and did not seem tasty at all. But it was pure bliss for me for having my lunch while watching movies. Life is perfect here in Mount Carmel.

I had a Dove dark chocolate with almonds as my dessert. There was a message left on the wrapper.

"Do all things with Love."

Is love the answer to everything? Can you define love?

Love is a big word for me. I am still figuring out what does love really means. I have to admit that it is even hard for me to say that I love myself. I know it is absurd but that was how I feel sometimes. I am a perfectionist and was constantly trying to be the perfect me. When I failed, I blamed myself. It was the hardest part when you could not blame anyone else but yourself. It hurt me to do that. I felt lonely when I turned against myself. All I could do was cried myself to bed and hoping that everything would be fine the next day. However, life is not that easy-going.

I am trying my very best not to be that harsh on myself.  

Smile .Love. Persevere.

  

a somber mood

I cried a lot recently.
I cried myself to bed thinking that everything will be fine the next day.
But, the truth is not.
I am so stuck.
I wish someone could tell me what to do.
I wish I could just let it go but I am still hanging on tightly to it.
Why am I doing it to myself?
I really do not know.
I have headache every single day.
I did not sleep well recently too.
I talked less recently.
I am always preoccupied with my thoughts about everything.
I could not stop.
I wish I could.
I tried everything I could to make me feel better.
Somehow, all the feel good techniques did not work for me.
Sleeping is the only antidote for me.

Smile. Love. Persevere.

Missing you

So, I reached home, and since I have just one class tomorrow, I guess I could procrastinate my homework again. Yes, call me a procrastinator. I have a little tiny-bitty of fever. That's what happens when my room is warm, but it is freezing cold outside of my room. You can imagine how my body has to adapt to two different temperature. Warm. Cold. Warm. Cold. Warm. Cold. Boom! You get fever.

While I was curling myself up like a caterpillar with my comforter, I stalked people in facebook, and I visited 5s7 group too. I miss high school so much, and the people the most.

I thought that I would not miss high school after I graduated. I guess that I am totally wrong.

Seriously, I need a time machine.

Smile. Love. Persevere.

Eat. Pray. Love.

I have always wanted to watch this movie. When I first saw the movie trailer on tv, I knew it would be a fantastic movie. I am proud to say that I am indeed correct, at least in my point of view. Where should I start? Fate or perhaps destiny brought me to this movie. I was expecting "Battle LA" to be worth watching, but it seemed like it was just one of those crappy movies about alien invading the Earth, and how we human beings were trying so hard to battle with the aliens. Now, it makes sense to me that the title of the movie is "Battle LA." I have to say that the trailer of the movie indeed was fantastic and amazing which I was fooled by. I quit watching the movie after 10 minutes. I have to say that the special effects in this movie were not as good as the ones in "Transformers." Besides, the movie was just all about guns and missiles. I know guys will say amen to this movie. I did the right choice to choose another movie.


I scrolled down the menu, and I found "Eat. Pray. Love." Amen from me. I have always wanted to watch this movie. I knew that it would be a great movie. Interestingly, this movie was a true story. It was a memoir about a lady named Elizabeth Gilbert  who had everything a modern woman is supposed to dream of having. She had a great husband, her dream house, a successful career which was a writer. However, sadly to say she found herself lost, confused, and searching for what she really wanted in life. She was divorced and had a bad relationship with her boyfriend. Out of a sudden, she decided to step out of her comfort zone, risking everything she had to change her life, embarking on a journey around the world for one year that became a quest for self-discovery. In her travels, she discovered the true pleasure of nourishment by eating in Italy; the power of prayer in India, and unexpectedly, the inner peace and balance of true love in Bali. 

How I wish I could just be like Liz, packed everything up and just traveled to where ever she wanted to. I really want to do it. I have so many places that I have to visit. Bali, Aussie, Germany, Greece, Italy, Japan and the list goes on. I want to meet new people and experience new things just like she did. This movie inspires me to do so. The other thing I found interesting was about her expedition to India in order to seek for God. I admit that I am not a strong and faithful Christian. I am so sorry to say that. But this movie gave me a heads up. Maybe it is time for me to pray to God more often. I have to admit that praying does provides me inner peace. Some, especially Atheist may argue that when calamity strikes, praying will not do any good. You have to depend on yourself to solve the problems. I agree with that statement, but praying provides me inner peace and makes me feel calm and less intense. It is just the same for repeating a certain mantra like in Buddhism. 


Liz found true love in the end while she was in Bali. Such an amazing love affair in an amazing place. Hello people, it is Bali! Imagine the food, beaches, cute guys, and love. It is indeed intriguing. Weng Tze, back to reality! I am here, sitting in front of my laptop and trying to finish this post. A trip like this will be mine to pursue. I will add more spices to this wild dream of mine, perhaps backpack travelling with only $500 in my wallet. In a nutshell, this movie was worth every bit of my time even though it was 2 hours and 25 minutes long. Thumbs up for this movie. This movie was based on the book by Elizabeth Gilbert. I really should read the book as well. 


My taste for movies changes a lot. I used to love all those aliens-invading-the-Earth movies, but it seems like I prefer movies which are more realistic like "Eat. Pray. Love." By the way, Brad Pitt was the executive producer of this movie too. That was the reason I watched this movie too. Well, maybe.


 "Dolce far niente", the sweetness of doing nothing. An Italian phrase I learned from the movie. Brava!

Smile. Love. Persevere.

Nostalgia

This was my first place I called home when I first came to USA in spring 2010.

3rd st was what we called.

Pretty flowers bloomed in spring.

This was my territory. 

Welcome to my room.

Nothing is needed to be said.

I tried to persuade L to allow me to 

adopt the bunny. Mission failed.

I still visit 3rd st. once in a while. Somehow, I am not the one who is staying there anymore. 

However, standing outside of 3rd st. gave me a smile. This was the place which started everything. From friendships to love. All the memories in 3rd st. are valuable. I am glad that I stayed in 3rd st. in spring 2010.

Smile. Love. Persevere.