a teeny-bitty about UK

There are parties in campus almost every weekends.

Whenever you say these two alphabets, "UK" to the people in the states, the first thought they would have would be University of Kentucky instead of United Kingdom. Next, they will ask you this question, "have you been to the basketball game?"

"Go big blue!"

Yes I'm currently studying at a university in Lexington, Kentucky where people have these two alphabets, "UK" basically on everything from bags to shirts, cups, caps, car plates, and the list goes on. Blue is the main color here and red is the color of their rival, University of Louisville. It is advisable for you to not wear red to a game. Do it at your own risk.

Lexington is the second largest city in Kentucky after Louisville. However, in my opinion, Lexington is small so I would call it a town. Lexington reminds me of Malaysia because there are trees everywhere. I can't wait for the arrival of autumn. I bet I can play around with all those fallen leaves once again.

I admit that I have homesick (again!) when I first arrived in Lexington. I miss Ipoh and Mt. Carmel as well. I admit that I complained and whined about Lexington, my room, my lecturers, my classes, and the bus system. After two weeks in here, I accept the fact that I have to move on with my life. It's part of growing up. "We need to get out of our comfort zone" (weichien). Yes, I am pushing myself to do so and yes university life is stressful to me.

I apologize for the lack of decent photos about Lexington and my university. Here's a good one.

Delicious Indian food which reminded me of home. 

Smile. Love. Persevere.

decidophobia

The fear of making decision. 

As in my case it should be the fear of making the wrong decision.

Should I change my major?

Should I change my university?

Should I follow my well-planned career path?

Should I stop doubting?

Should I or shouldn't I?

 This is not a matter of flipping the coin to make a decision.

The thought of changing my plans is driving me insane.

Should I or shouldn't I?

Smile. Love. Persevere.

I used to...

make S'mores with Linh and chatted our way

through all those winter nights.

Smile. Love. Persevere.

freedom

When you're 21 years old, you'll get a key from your parents. That key signifies the freedom you'll get, it also represents that you're an adult now. As in my case, studying abroad means that I'll get my total freedom even though only at the age of 18 years and 11 months. I just realized that it doesn't matter how old are you, as long as you're in a foreign country all by yourself, you're pushed to think and act like an adult. 

I enjoy my freedom but I hate to deal and solve all my problems by myself. I just can't help but worrying that I could not get my bachelor degree in two years times. I worry how will my credits transfer. I worry how could I get my master's degree in my dream university. I hate worrying but that's exactly how I am. How i wish someone could vanish all my doubts right now. 

In a nutshell, freedom equals to adulthood and worries never will escape from your mind. 

Smile. Love. Persevere. 

 

time flies

I wish hard, and I mean it,

someone would hit me real hard right on my head just to put me back into reality that I'm leaving in less than 24 hours.

Time flies...

I'm the kind of person who doesn't like to show my true feelings, but I can tell you that right now, right at this moment, I want to cry out so bad. My brother is playing the guitar for me, and my mom is trying so hard to stay awake just to spend the last night with me.

On the bright side, I am going to start a new life in a new place. 

I am going to meet new people and do new things. 

Yes, it is time. 

Change can feel like pure adrenaline. 

Fortunately, I have two of my buddies following me to the states.

Smile. Love. Persevere.

cheers

I saw flowers bloomed and wilt.

I saw people came and left in my life.

I saw some who would stay in my heart forever too.

 To all the people out there who I love,

thanks for everything. 

Smile. Love. Persevere.